A beautiful day - A dream

It's a beautiful day
A lovely morning;
Sounds of wind...
A brand new day...

Two faces are there,
The day... The Sun...
The flicker of hope;
The power of light...
So bright...
Making me blind...

The opposite face
The blue poison...The Night!
The Moon...The dark light...

You are my Sun;
You are my moon...
You are the ray
Not only Moon;
Not only Sun...
To my mind;
It's a full day
A beautiful day.....

~HEART~

Dedicated to- To the biggest IDIOT (The Abnormal ) of this earth
Sorry for dedicating...

In my dream...
I look back
to that day...
the day when
I was me...

The joy of innocence...
with pure heart;
the day of smile,
without being hurt...

I desire a time
A time for nothing,
Just you and me...
And silence...
When we talk nothing...

Your arms around
my shoulder...
To offer me rest.
With warmth and care.

I won't ask for love
That's not mine.
But You can't be lost...
You were never mine...

I never own you;
I cannot even ask for.
I find myself lonely...
At the core.

I don't know
What i want,
Just like a puppet;
I'm playing my part...

Don't come
To save me...
This is my world
The real me...

I am..........................................

I am the sun...
I am the rain;

I am the smile...
I am the pain.

I am the white...
I am the dark;

I am the cold...
I am the spark.

I am the night...
I am the day;

I am the black...
I am the ray.

I am the mother...
I am the whore;

I am the the lady
lying on the shore...

I am the love;
I am the hurt!!!

I am you,
You are heart...

I am life
I am death...

I am beginning
And the end!!!

Letter to Mr.Valentine....

To Mr.Valentine,

Hope everything is okay there in heaven..hope u r in heaven....so howz life there?
we all celebrate ur death day....a pure gimmic....
people find a partner this time...& next year they find another one.... we feel so lonely without a partner that day...& do u know wat we call our partner??? VALENTINE!!!
Ur death made this day so FUCKING SPECIAL...don't u feel proud?
u should.....after all noneelse have aday by their name on their death day...

thanking u,
Nabanita

~Blue of Mind~

Feeling blue...
Mid of roses...
Color...
Of flower...
Heart is crying...
It's true...

I don't know...
My heart's desire...
Eyes are raining...
Gloomy season...
I want to run...away...
Far... and far...

Love is in the air...
Moon is so clear...
Candles are glowing...
But eyes are raining...
Far away from shining...

Blue is mind...
Blue is heart...
Blue is feelings...
Rainbow gone...
Gone the rainbow...
Cold breeze....on my face...
I... close my eyes...

Close eyes don't pain...
And now...
There is only rain...

~MEMORIES~

Dedicated to- Shuvadeep Ghosh
Sorry to- Shuvadeep Ghosh

A long night...
No one inside,
Scattered dreams...
Hot tears...
Rolling down...
down...
and down...

I've seen him
In all hues...
All through smile
and joys...
But never
to a river of tears....
may be,
I never seen
him all...
Endless memories
laughter and worries
trudge me back...
Those golden days
Gone...
Gone are those days...

I never know
I could be lost,
so lost...
Ever in my life
Days go on...
Life moves on...
Only I am in
some deep slumber...

The ending seems
Nearer...
I can feel it
Closer...
Closer...
And closer...

I want to lie down
Next to him
In the shores....
I have known
All the life...
The rainbow
of feelings...
I could possibly
ever know...

I wish
To look back again
On the very few
Times of mine...
When I would wake up
With a smile...
And a flicker of hope
To be with him...

I've always wondered
Who he was...
Without whom
My days are like hell
Night seems to be
Endless deep pits
Where I tread along
As if in a trance...

I know
It's high time
to move on...
But each step
of mine... ahead...
Brings in to my mind
His foot prints...

the prints
so hardly fixed...

I know
The pain he felt
Was for me...
The pain of
Leaving me astray...
But...
he's gone...
Away...
Away...
And away...

And me?
I don't know...
Where to go...

Losing The Soul...

Declaration:- Any similarities with anybody is purely coincidental....

Jiboner pothe roj hete chola...
koto shoto chhobi roj muchhe fela...
haansi haansi mukhe koto byatha na bola...
jibiter bhire mrito khunje chola...
haranor shoke paoa vule jaoa....
onuvutihim manusher kaaya...

(A journey through life...
erasing so many pictures from mind...
a face with smile... and heart with hidden pain
searching death among lives...
we r becoming feelingless creature called human...)

Why the feelingless creature human suffers from pain?
why...
why...
why?????????????????

why itz so tough to adjust even for them... whom everyone knows as "HEART-BREAKER"....
does that mean... a Heart Breaker has no heart?
Does that mean a heart Breaker doesn't feel any pain when the heart breaks into pieces?

Why does The heart Breaker fails to cry?
Why does the person laugh when actually he/she is crying inside...
Why does it hurt so much???

IRONY.... & RIDICULE.....

again I'm throwing loads of questions...which have no answers....
haa haa haa haa....

Forever Darling, ...always

Special thanks to- Sudipto Mukherji

Tomorrow is never guaranteed
we take for granted time
and all our worthwhile deeds
if i should die before i wake
and the lord my soul does take
i have felt the earthquake
understand my bliss
know before i die
that i have never felt so nice
in the spirit of your arms

Tomorrow- a big word...a big uncertainty...
But do present means anything???
Present too is nothing but uncertainty.. nothing but pain...
Then why tomorrow only?
May be itz better for my heart to die before i wake...
But my conscience will not allow it...

So, in the end...this poem again representing nothing....as usual
Forgive me...

Unsolved...

Dedicated to- HIM
Special Thanks to my Friend Rwik-This is his story (or should i say,reality)
"Tere pyaar mein kaise jiye hum....
Jala hai yeh dil...
Yeh aankhein huyi nam..."

What lines....
Meaningless...
Bullshits...

pyaar= love=timepass=timewaste...

love?? what the hell is love?
does anyone know?

someone told me years ago, love means to have someone as ur companion,in good or bad.in sorrows, in happiness, in pains.love means someone whom u need always....

But may be love is a fucking word...there is nothing called love...
the person u always need, u always miss... howz it feel when that person refuses....

god damn it....
god damn it....
god damn it....

what is the solution?

Love:- The ParadoX

A new year
begins
with a blast
of fun...
in the sky...
but
not for all...
I saw,
the moonless night...up
behind fun
so dark
from inside...

The first night...
has secrets
in its mind...
has tears
and pains...

look...
they are dancing
in rain...
and here
someone is
cutting vein...

does hurting a heart
give pain?
and
breaking a heart???
.........................................
.........................................
the night smiles...
the curse...
the black
says, "come on"
this is life
which 'can cut a heart
by a
sharp knife...


The first night
bleeds pain...
while cutting
the vein...

someone cries...
shouts...
"life is a bluff
stop this game...
because...
I'm having pain..."

The night
becomes black
its bloody smile
becomes laughter...
It says,
"It's the curse
of life...
It's the curse
of heart...
It's the curse
of love...
It's love
brings you
to hurt...

Meaningless
is love...
which cuts
the heart...
So,
forget love
and
avoid being hurt...

The truth
of life...
"Don't die...
just
Forget love
and fly"...

May be it doesn't matter whether we love someone or not...it doesn't matter whether we are getting love back or not... because love is unconditional... love can never be selfish... may be thats why even a broken heart sometimes deliver a laughter to its sweetheart... who broke it...

IRONY & RIDICULE...!!!

Oh! all bullshits...

So, just be a successful person...and to become a successful person forget all your feelings... because in the end... Career does matter... heart doesn't...

I'm SORRY...
i DON'T KNOW WHAT LOVE IS...

ILLUSION???

Once
On a evening
Indolence hold my hand
And took me
To a dark land….
It asked me to believe;
And I saw
Flowers in a dozen…
In my mind
All of a sudden…

And
I started my journey…
Leaving my root…
Behind…
So free
From mind…
But not blind…
With trust
In my heart…
With chances
Of getting hurt…

I……
Saw a spin on path
Lights gone…
Lighter…
Closed my eyes…
No roses were there
Only another twist
On the path…
I……
Left my desires
Only dreams came
With me…
On desert…
On lonely path…
In search of light……

The search did seem
Meaningless…
Suddenly…
With a fragrance
I found a pathway
With a new beam of ray…

You….
Were standing there
With stretched arms
Full of warmth…
As if you crave
All my pain
On you like rain…
That moment…
Mesmerized my thought…
When I felt no hurt…
And found my head
Resting…
On your shoulder…
So happy
Felt like dying
I couldn’t…
But crying…

~BACK TO MOON~

Clouds
In the sky…
Floating.
Mind…
A river
Flowing…
Or,
Flying high!!!

Unworthy
Oh you!
Says brain,
See life…
Stop
Taking pain…

Heart laughs,
“I……
Have seen pain…
Still
I laugh…
I get wet…
In rain…”

Brain laughs,
“You…
Are here
To live…
Not to shed
Bloody tear…”

Clouds
Black…
Hides sun…
It says,
“Don’t cry…
I will
Come back…”

Life
Mortal…
Possessions
Material…
What we feel
So unreal…
It is real

It’s night…
When
We dream…
We desire…
We…
Close eyes
Pain dies???

We search
Eldorado…
A journey
Never ending…
Destination
Seems pseudo…

World
A stage…
Clowns
Are we…
So free
But
Inside a cage

Distorted…
Colorless…
It’s death?
Oh you
Don’t die…
Close
Your eyes…
Fly…
There is
A sky…

Afternoon Sun…
On it’s high…
Look at it
And
Close your eye
Inside you…
See the moon
Even
In afternoon…

~BLACK~

Evening sky
Depressed sun
Going down
Emerged
Into dark…

Sky is not black
It’s crimson
Colour of blood
Or, just sky?
Unsolved mystery
I cry……

Life
Blossoms at night
When
There is no light
Only
Passion is bright…

Night is rainbow
Of heaven
Or, hell?
Of passion
Or, pain?

Dark lanes
On earth…
On mind…
Earth suffocates
So am I…
Are you blind?

Your touch
Warm breath
You…
Oh hell!!!
You said,
“It’s heaven”!!!

“You are lost”
Says my brain

Creation
Or, destruction?
Pain
Or, passion?
Life
Goes on……

Night ends
Streetlamps went out
So as my shout…

I stop
My soul gets lost
Once again…
To my brain
Or, to pain?

It’s a new day
With nothing new
With another evening…
With another night…
Another fight…
Between my soul
And my mind…

I cry……

I cry
For my night…

My soul says
“Oh, save me”
I……….
Close my eyes
“Forgive me”

~BONDHON~

Raater nirjonotay
Tarader majhe
Lukiye thaake aandhaar

Amar moner majhe
Ami phire asi…
Tobu baarebaar……

Sararaat jege
Bhorer sopne
Ke jeno jay chhunye
Hese uthi aami
Chupisaare taar
Ushno poros peye…

Chokhe rekhe chokh
Haate rakhe taar haat
Kepe uthi aami…
Hoi onto rongo…

Tobu jeno aaj
Khusi noy mon...
Se bujhi harabe...
Ei nibir songo…
Dite chayna hote
Ei sopno ke bhongo…

Byakul hridoy kede othe
Baarebaare kore prosno
Chhere jodi jabei tumi
Keno ele mor saamne…
Duhaat bariye
Apon kore…
Niye gele keno…
Swarger nondon kanone…

Mon bole othe…
Kedona hridoy...
Valobasha jeno khoniker …
chokher joler baandhonete bedhe
thaakte bolona take chirokaal…

Kono ekkaale…
Kono eksthaane…
Hoyto peleo paabe…
tomar hridoy phire…
Pichhutaane bedhe…
Hariyona tare…
Diyona jete bohudure…
Se valobasha chirotore…

Life Goes On...............

That night... it was year end... nearly 10months ago......

He called me up... we're chatting... everything was fine... and I was happy... some problems which were there even a few dayz ago..those were vanished.....

But..no..... sometimes life proves us wrong... Dead wrong...

we're laughing....and he said... he proposed someone....!!!
I couldn't believe my own ears.... I thought he must be joking....

No... he wasn't...

"Friendship often ends in love...
Love in friendship???
Never...."

It was a test-time for our friendship..which came to a dead end......

I thought I can never forgive him...

2months later... one night I received a phone call from him... not very casual...but he was trying to...

and i was astonished by myself... i saw that i forgave him... i didn't want him to regret..so i smiled.... & talked in a very casual manner...

He resumed our friendship...today again we use to talk very friendly... yaa...something is still there in my heart... but...something are never meant for you...

Today I am not unhappy....infact very happy with my life...so...thought to share this story in my blog...

After all Life goes on...

Even Dead ends are not Dead...

A night- A Ghost- &, A Girl

Blue night
Dreams come…
Dreams gone…
A dark room,
And
A small red light…

A girl…
Sleeping……
Unconscious…
Dreaming deeply…
Smiling…
For
Someone special…

Innocence…
On her face,
Her dream
Makes her smile,
She doesn’t know
It’s fragile…

She was crying
Before sleeping
Then
She slept…
Frustration
Was on her face…

Night is ending
I touched her…
Wanted
To take her
To heaven…
But…
Her soul denies…

But,
It’s crying…
For refusing…

Poor girl
Come with me…
Avoid pain…
It’s insane…

She says…

“Happiness in pain…
Hope in pain…
Laughter in pain…

These are what
She seeks…
And

She knows…
She is insane…”

She says..

“Heaven doesn’t need her
So,
She chooses hell…

It’s her journey…
She wants to go
Alone…
In the light…
In the dark…
In hells sin…
Or,
In heavens spark…”

Oh!
I’ve to go…
It’s morning…
My destiny is calling…

She wakes up…
Saw the sky
The sun is bright…
She moves out of sight…

I pray…
I pray for her…
It’s a new day…
Hope she’ll find…
A new ray…
Which won’t
Make her blind…

tHE rOAD nOT TAKEN-3

What happens
When you feel
All you ever had
leaves?
All you ever seen
Disappears?
All you ever draw
fades?

nothing happen.....bcoz....what more can happen????
sometimes life comes to an dead end........but we have to live.......
why should someone sacrifice????
there is two way....sometime to same destination...
sometimes..one to heaven...
another to hell......

but if you choose the way to hell....just try to find good in bad...what the actual things we do in life..we seek bad in good most of the time......

so for a change if we try to seek good in bad...it can cause li'l bit of happiness...may be.....

PHIRE ASAR SOPNO

Ondhokar er haatchhani
Bistrito shunyota
Ar,
Mone bishonnota……

Tumi
Amar onekdin er bondhu
Onek chup kotha…
Osfuto bedonar shrota…
Amar bondho moner sindhu…

Tumi
Ekjholok tatka batas…
Snigdhota…
Ami kolonkito
Ondhokaarer nisshash…

Tumi
Sthaan dao amake
Chokher taray…
Hridoy majhe…
Ami klanto
Porishranto…

Ami
Vese cholechi
Amaake atkano
Osombhob…
Tobu……
Aj atok hote chai
Tomar ushno alingone
Tomar moner ongone…

Jhor aschhe
Chardik jhapsa…
Ar amar mone
Hotasha…

Somoy
Chole jachhe…
Rekhe jachhe
Kichhu afshosh
Ar
Chhoto chhoto kichhu dirghoshas……

Tumi
Ekbaar egiye eso…
Somoy chole jabar agey……
Jhoro batas…
Haat ta barao
Ami phire asbo
Eta amar asshas
Ar, hoyto
Tomar bishhas…

It's Raining

t’s green
It’s dark
It’s raining

Silence
Everywhere…

In mind???

One, two
Drops…
Of rain…
Of tear…

Night…
Music…
Of mystery…
Of life…
Of death…
Of dark…
Of light???

Rebirth
Or
Another journey?
Towards death…
Death of life…
Death of image…
Death of faith…

Images…
Fades away…
People…
Grew up…
Loneliness…
Becomes friend…
A new ray…
Towards life…
Towards heart…
Oh hell!!!
These hurt…

Sky
Crying…
Stupid
It’s raining…

DREAM OF A GIRL

Don’t come to me

Don’t look at me…

Why do you?

Am I going insane?

When the moon

Give rays

On earth,

On my memory lane…

The touch

I treasure…

Do I really?

Or it’s just pleasure?

Sometimes… sometimes… sometimes… we can’t control… or may be, we don’t want to control!!! Our brain and our heart both indulge in a war… a war of to be or not to be… but still everything happens… because it happens… because it is destined to happen…

The deep blue night

Two souls became one

Or, two half souls?

Is it true that when two persons love each other (as lover) they become one soul? But, the devilish truth behind this word is when two souls become one then the result is two half souls… pardon me… correct me… if you find it wrong…

Differences erased

By our brains…

And,

Our brains united…

Our souls didn’t.

I cried…

But

Then I couldn’t…

Lips locked

I’m locked inside you

My soul didn’t lock…

But your soul was screaming

“PLEASE DON’T GO!”

I sacrificed…

Everything I possess

“You are insane”

My heart says-

To my brain…

Prince Charming, Romeo, and loads…

A girl grow up… with a dream, that one day her Prince Charming will come riding a horse to take her with him…

The girl grows up… becomes a lady… a women… becomes successful… professionally very successful… but the dream is still young… as it was the 1st day.. When she read “mills and boons”… or “love story” first time…

But … but… but…

One day she saw her dreams are smashed… she saw that her dreams are smashed… and she is sleeping with a man… a successful man… a loving boyfriend… partner… or husband… but not his Prince Charming!!!

The Slap of Reality!!!