Showing posts with label mentalhealth. Show all posts
Showing posts with label mentalhealth. Show all posts

Tuesday, April 14, 2020

From the Diary- Quarantined - Part IV



Quarantine! Lockdown! COVID19!

She turned the volume of her headphone up! It was bursting in her ears, but she needed to stop that sound. It was as if she was trying to stop her thoughts with the sounds.

A tear rolled down, she chose to ignore. She could just stop and rest but she needs the pumping heart to defeat the thoughts. She needs to feel tired, to fall asleep at night!

A cherry tree! She looked at it and realized the sky is azure and beautiful today. She stopped, a cherry blossom dropped, and then a few. She stood there, in silence.

Friday, April 10, 2020

From the Diary- Quarantined Part II



30th Day in Lock down. Well, honestly, I had to go out to the supermarket, weekly once. Also, I went for jogging in the nearby park, because, I could not deal with the anxiety and panic that was building up inside me. Spring is here and the sky as well as the trees are looking pretty and colorful. I click couple of pics whenever I go to the park and somehow, that has been my driving force.

Cooking was another thing that I indulged into massively these past few weeks. Well, as a food blogger, cooking has always been my favorite in-house activity. However, I don't always get as much time as I am getting now. So, I kinda tried to balance out all those missing times. It's been therapeutic and helped me in some days.

My sleep quality is not good. I am unable to study as much as I should and I can feel that I am losing the grip from whatever I have learned before the pandemic started. I hate it.

We all had plans before the Pandemic came crushing down, on all of us, globally. I was heart-broken after my long awaited road trip got cancelled. I had plans following that trip, life plans. Now, those life plans have also got postponed, indefinitely. Whole life seems to be a topsy-turvy.

Additionally, I feel more distant from people now. I don't like people talking like "know-it-alls" over the video conferences and whatsapps. I feel, some people are either too stupid or too wise. However, when I am looking carefully, I don't see any empaths around. Empathy is rare, and in last 1 month of Quarantine, I could feel it even more. 

More alone than ever? Umm, may be. Stronger, than ever? Of course. A bit Stranger too? Yeah, may be, I will never look at like the same way, I used to. I will not take it for granted. I will be careful about planning my future. COVID-19 has been a learning lesson, at a very personal level.