Bus-Stop

Cold cold breeze
on my face;
Icy cool drops...of rain;
Taking me to a trip to
Down memory lane.

The lanes become
Dark and dirty;
Rain becomes faster;
Nothingness...caught me then,
When I become a loner again...

What is there left to say,
May be...I wasn't right anyway

~U-TURN~

Slowly, Silently
Darkness falls down
in my mind;
With the touch...
Warmth of your breath;
Passion...one of a kind.

I became dead once;
Because of my poisonous love
for you...
But I fought back
To won the battle;
Do you know?

And today I'm alive...
No more death...
Itz life... I do believe.

~JUST NOW~

[PENNED IT DOWN IN MOBILE.....WITHOUT ANY THOUGHT...]

Just now
I felt helpless;
Just now
I felt your embrace.
Just now
I wanted to runaway
Just now
You've shown me the right way.
Just now
I closed my eyes in dark;
Just now
You brought to me the right mark.
Just now
I wanted to die!!!
Just now
You asked me to give it a try.
Just now
I found you nowhere...
Just now
I saw you came closer.
Just now
I wanted to count what I have
I found nothing but your love.

~The Lost Graveyard...~

The flood of emotion…
Has started again;
While I was walking…
Down the memory lane.

It seemed a long ago…
I traveled this way;
With no one to call friend…
With no place to stay!!!

I then found a new lane;
Where I wanted to die;
Where I wanted to survive;
Where I became insane!!!

And all my emotions died…
But I survived!!!
The ebb of emotion
With no love…only rage…
With less smile…lesser courage.

The memory lane…
Where I lost my soul;
There I found light today…
All colours…but not grey.

I found it back;
The rainbow of emotions…
The shining smile…
The raining tears…
The warm affection…and care.

With tears rolling down
I found myself standing
At the graveyard of my past…
Staring at a new dawn…
A new beginning atlast

8simple things....

I got tagged by my friend Bubai aka Sushir Rahaman....nearly 2weeks ago..but I failed to manage some time for this post...so a gig SORRY to him :)

So, please hold ur breath...

1.)I sometimes try to write some useless things...& for that I love to think myself as a poem writter.

2.)Nodoubt I'm a dreamer...but only dreamz...no nightmares[:P]

3.)I'm quite a crackpot...all the strangest things alwyz happen to me[:P]

4.)I believe I'm the worst person u can have ever seen...

5.)I'm alwyz into muzic..my 2nd 3rd or 4th love may be(pun intended)

6.)Books-thats one thing my passion....

7.)oh & yaa..photography started being my hobby now a dayz[:P]

8.) may be the most whimsical one on this earth...i love everything & nothing at the same time...

but still i love to love & being in love...hate to hate & being hated...

now anything left????did u really get anything from this???[:P]

~Transformation~

Some bloody things I need to say,
Please don't runaway...
When you come closer
I wanna love you forever...


I wish I was your love
I wish you were mine.
I watch your smile;
I watch when you are crying.
Oh! I wish you were mine!

And then...
Life took an "U"-turn;
I couldn't find the way to return.
I was stuck in that dark!!!
Couldn't even see any mark...

I was lost inside myself,
Emptiness hold me...my innerself.
Tired I was...broken from inside
Just then you came like a lightening tide!!!

I was crying in the dark...was trying to hold on
No one could hear...I was all alone...
All that I craved someone to love...
You make me close my eyes...and hold your hand
I...that time felt your warmth...

A new path you made...saved me from death;
Came so closer...became my lover.
Now something...i wanna say...
I know you won't runaway...
All I need is you...only you;
Oh darling! be mine...I love you.

~LIFE~

Life has become a medley
Of pain and tear.
Nothing did seem clear.
Everything became so obscure
And dark…
Even light used to make me nark!!!
Was lost inside a maze;
Wish I could become raze.
But I got over;
Didn’t end my life with
A razor!!!
And then I saw another sight
So full of light;
With no grudges of past
I stand up from the
Poisonous dust…
And there began a new journey,
With love, faith and trust.

I'll be watching you

STING lyrics

~Rain~

DEDICATED TO- ABHIRUP CHAKRABARTY
Written down while I was standing at a ghaat...

I sensed the breeze
On my face...
Cold... Wet...
I heard the sound
of water...
Silent... Sweet...
I saw the twilight
Black... Dark...
I felt the sky higher
Clouds... Sparks...
And then,
I saw the rain coming...


WHERE ARE YOU?

I wanna get drenched in rain...
Only with you...

&Atlast with a phone call...

Rain has come...
Along with you...

~COMING BACK INTO THE LIFE~

You saved my heart
Without knowing me;
You saved my dream
When you heard my scream...
My soul was lost
It was then saved by you...
You came into my life;
You...saved my life.

You helped me out;
Why did you do it?
I don't know the reason;
Don't even want to...
All I know that
You were like a shower
On a deserted flower.

It was time
To sink or to swim...
When...you came along;
You pulled me out...
Of the troubles...
I was in.

I stopped myself from
Finding a way of my own;
I don't know
How did you know...that
I was alone.

I was hanging by a thread
I was sinking... and
I was waiting to become dead!!!

You came...And
You've shown me colours...of life...
You saved my life...
You became my life!!!
And made my life.

For you dear

For you

I am not yours, not lost in you,
Not lost, although I long to be
Lost as a candle lit at noon,
Lost as a snowflake in the sea.

You love me, and I find you still
A spirit beautiful and bright,
Yet I am I, who long to be
Lost as a light is lost in light.

Oh plunge me deep in love -- put out
My senses, leave me deaf and blind,
Swept by the tempest of your love,
A taper in a rushing wind.

~LOVER or TRAITOR~

I wanna say My heartiest sorry to some people.....

Behind the closed door
One small bed;
You and me...
Standing on the floor...

I felt love;
I felt warmth
And I made love!!!
But I don't know how,
I missed you!!!

I closed my eyes;
I felt you...
Inside me!!!
I smiled;
I cried;
I shouted;
I lost it...
I lost it all... to you!!!

But,
It wasn't you...
It can never be you.
But the touch was yours!!!
Inside my mind,
I made myself blind...
And opened up my mind...

But
Don't ever close your eyes...
And never open up your mind.
I'm your present
And I stay there inside your mind...
That's all you'll able to find!!!

So, Don't ever close your eyes;
I don't want you to pay the price.
You are the winner...
Don't make yourself the looser!!!
I've seen your soul
Which you never knew... That i could...
May be, it was a sin
But your soul...there I've seen...
Who are you...
The real you!!!

I'm a creep:
A fucking nonsense!!!
So, don't close your eyes...
On my word...
That makes no sense...

DISEASE

This one is the most arbitly written poem ever by me... it has no start & no end...sorry to all

You are a drug
I'm addicted...
I'm affected...
I'm rejected!!!
It's irony...
That you are my medicine.
But I don't need it!!!
Loving you is a sin;
A crime Which is only mine...
And yet I don't want medicine,
Angel of Death is calling...

HARA-KIRI

Aaj hothat
akash ta abaar mone holo chena,
Aaj hothat
abaar jeno holam aanmona..
Aaj hothat
haariye gelam otit din er srote;
Aaj hothat
abaar ichhe holo amaar ushno hote...
Aaj hothat
Tomar smriti phirchhe baarbaar,
Aaj ki tobe
tomay aami haralam abaar...

A beautiful day - A dream

It's a beautiful day
A lovely morning;
Sounds of wind...
A brand new day...

Two faces are there,
The day... The Sun...
The flicker of hope;
The power of light...
So bright...
Making me blind...

The opposite face
The blue poison...The Night!
The Moon...The dark light...

You are my Sun;
You are my moon...
You are the ray
Not only Moon;
Not only Sun...
To my mind;
It's a full day
A beautiful day.....

~HEART~

Dedicated to- To the biggest IDIOT (The Abnormal ) of this earth
Sorry for dedicating...

In my dream...
I look back
to that day...
the day when
I was me...

The joy of innocence...
with pure heart;
the day of smile,
without being hurt...

I desire a time
A time for nothing,
Just you and me...
And silence...
When we talk nothing...

Your arms around
my shoulder...
To offer me rest.
With warmth and care.

I won't ask for love
That's not mine.
But You can't be lost...
You were never mine...

I never own you;
I cannot even ask for.
I find myself lonely...
At the core.

I don't know
What i want,
Just like a puppet;
I'm playing my part...

Don't come
To save me...
This is my world
The real me...

I am..........................................

I am the sun...
I am the rain;

I am the smile...
I am the pain.

I am the white...
I am the dark;

I am the cold...
I am the spark.

I am the night...
I am the day;

I am the black...
I am the ray.

I am the mother...
I am the whore;

I am the the lady
lying on the shore...

I am the love;
I am the hurt!!!

I am you,
You are heart...

I am life
I am death...

I am beginning
And the end!!!

Letter to Mr.Valentine....

To Mr.Valentine,

Hope everything is okay there in heaven..hope u r in heaven....so howz life there?
we all celebrate ur death day....a pure gimmic....
people find a partner this time...& next year they find another one.... we feel so lonely without a partner that day...& do u know wat we call our partner??? VALENTINE!!!
Ur death made this day so FUCKING SPECIAL...don't u feel proud?
u should.....after all noneelse have aday by their name on their death day...

thanking u,
Nabanita

~Blue of Mind~

Feeling blue...
Mid of roses...
Color...
Of flower...
Heart is crying...
It's true...

I don't know...
My heart's desire...
Eyes are raining...
Gloomy season...
I want to run...away...
Far... and far...

Love is in the air...
Moon is so clear...
Candles are glowing...
But eyes are raining...
Far away from shining...

Blue is mind...
Blue is heart...
Blue is feelings...
Rainbow gone...
Gone the rainbow...
Cold breeze....on my face...
I... close my eyes...

Close eyes don't pain...
And now...
There is only rain...

~MEMORIES~

Dedicated to- Shuvadeep Ghosh
Sorry to- Shuvadeep Ghosh

A long night...
No one inside,
Scattered dreams...
Hot tears...
Rolling down...
down...
and down...

I've seen him
In all hues...
All through smile
and joys...
But never
to a river of tears....
may be,
I never seen
him all...
Endless memories
laughter and worries
trudge me back...
Those golden days
Gone...
Gone are those days...

I never know
I could be lost,
so lost...
Ever in my life
Days go on...
Life moves on...
Only I am in
some deep slumber...

The ending seems
Nearer...
I can feel it
Closer...
Closer...
And closer...

I want to lie down
Next to him
In the shores....
I have known
All the life...
The rainbow
of feelings...
I could possibly
ever know...

I wish
To look back again
On the very few
Times of mine...
When I would wake up
With a smile...
And a flicker of hope
To be with him...

I've always wondered
Who he was...
Without whom
My days are like hell
Night seems to be
Endless deep pits
Where I tread along
As if in a trance...

I know
It's high time
to move on...
But each step
of mine... ahead...
Brings in to my mind
His foot prints...

the prints
so hardly fixed...

I know
The pain he felt
Was for me...
The pain of
Leaving me astray...
But...
he's gone...
Away...
Away...
And away...

And me?
I don't know...
Where to go...

Losing The Soul...

Declaration:- Any similarities with anybody is purely coincidental....

Jiboner pothe roj hete chola...
koto shoto chhobi roj muchhe fela...
haansi haansi mukhe koto byatha na bola...
jibiter bhire mrito khunje chola...
haranor shoke paoa vule jaoa....
onuvutihim manusher kaaya...

(A journey through life...
erasing so many pictures from mind...
a face with smile... and heart with hidden pain
searching death among lives...
we r becoming feelingless creature called human...)

Why the feelingless creature human suffers from pain?
why...
why...
why?????????????????

why itz so tough to adjust even for them... whom everyone knows as "HEART-BREAKER"....
does that mean... a Heart Breaker has no heart?
Does that mean a heart Breaker doesn't feel any pain when the heart breaks into pieces?

Why does The heart Breaker fails to cry?
Why does the person laugh when actually he/she is crying inside...
Why does it hurt so much???

IRONY.... & RIDICULE.....

again I'm throwing loads of questions...which have no answers....
haa haa haa haa....

Forever Darling, ...always

Special thanks to- Sudipto Mukherji

Tomorrow is never guaranteed
we take for granted time
and all our worthwhile deeds
if i should die before i wake
and the lord my soul does take
i have felt the earthquake
understand my bliss
know before i die
that i have never felt so nice
in the spirit of your arms

Tomorrow- a big word...a big uncertainty...
But do present means anything???
Present too is nothing but uncertainty.. nothing but pain...
Then why tomorrow only?
May be itz better for my heart to die before i wake...
But my conscience will not allow it...

So, in the end...this poem again representing nothing....as usual
Forgive me...

Unsolved...

Dedicated to- HIM
Special Thanks to my Friend Rwik-This is his story (or should i say,reality)
"Tere pyaar mein kaise jiye hum....
Jala hai yeh dil...
Yeh aankhein huyi nam..."

What lines....
Meaningless...
Bullshits...

pyaar= love=timepass=timewaste...

love?? what the hell is love?
does anyone know?

someone told me years ago, love means to have someone as ur companion,in good or bad.in sorrows, in happiness, in pains.love means someone whom u need always....

But may be love is a fucking word...there is nothing called love...
the person u always need, u always miss... howz it feel when that person refuses....

god damn it....
god damn it....
god damn it....

what is the solution?

Love:- The ParadoX

A new year
begins
with a blast
of fun...
in the sky...
but
not for all...
I saw,
the moonless night...up
behind fun
so dark
from inside...

The first night...
has secrets
in its mind...
has tears
and pains...

look...
they are dancing
in rain...
and here
someone is
cutting vein...

does hurting a heart
give pain?
and
breaking a heart???
.........................................
.........................................
the night smiles...
the curse...
the black
says, "come on"
this is life
which 'can cut a heart
by a
sharp knife...


The first night
bleeds pain...
while cutting
the vein...

someone cries...
shouts...
"life is a bluff
stop this game...
because...
I'm having pain..."

The night
becomes black
its bloody smile
becomes laughter...
It says,
"It's the curse
of life...
It's the curse
of heart...
It's the curse
of love...
It's love
brings you
to hurt...

Meaningless
is love...
which cuts
the heart...
So,
forget love
and
avoid being hurt...

The truth
of life...
"Don't die...
just
Forget love
and fly"...

May be it doesn't matter whether we love someone or not...it doesn't matter whether we are getting love back or not... because love is unconditional... love can never be selfish... may be thats why even a broken heart sometimes deliver a laughter to its sweetheart... who broke it...

IRONY & RIDICULE...!!!

Oh! all bullshits...

So, just be a successful person...and to become a successful person forget all your feelings... because in the end... Career does matter... heart doesn't...

I'm SORRY...
i DON'T KNOW WHAT LOVE IS...