Showing posts with label Dil Se. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Dil Se. Show all posts

Thursday, February 02, 2017

The broken promise

The drizzle outside made him shiver a bit. While his cup of hot americano went cold, he couldn’t brush off the memories that were still running in his mind. Frowning at himself, he decided to go inside and finish reading the book, and brush aside his thoughts.

(10 years back)

“I like when you blush. Wish I could capture the moment!”
“It is captured in our hearts and we really don’t need a camera for that. Sometimes, in the future, whenever it rains, the smell of the wet soil will bring this moment back to us.”
“What if we are no more together then? Or we are together but in different cities?”
“we will always be together, whether in the same city or in a different one, in life or in memories, in one way or another. I will keep one movie ticket stub to myself and you will keep another. This will be our ticket to this moment”.
“You are crazy!”
“And ain't you madly in love with that part of mine?”
“Nope. I am with love with every bit of yours. You complete me”. Her giggle couldn't let him say anything after that.

(Present day)

While getting ready, he felt the mirror mocking at him. Introspect was something he never felt of doing but the sticky note on the wardrobe door, still pinches him. Is it too late? He asked himself looking at the mirror, only to get no answer back.

The long hours at office, the frequent touring, the passive love making, or his searching for bigger picture and illusive altitudes in career - he could never figure out what went wrong.

(1 month back)

He came back from office to an empty house and everything seemed normal as the food was ready on table and he went for shower. He saw the sticky note at night, “I miss not missing you. We thought we would become one, but instead we became yoU & I. And today, I decided to part ways.” Even before he could understand the situation fully, the phone rang, and it was his most important client.

(Present day)

The drizzle made him uncomfortable and the smell of wet soil was capturing his heart. The last one month he never really missed anything in his life and he knew that he can continue living this way. But, this anxiousness was unknown and new to him and he couldn’t figure out why, why something was not right and was pulling him back.
 It took him some time to remember where his old notebooks are. The drawer in the left side of the corner table, the movie ticket stub was kept carelessly in one faded green old notbook.

A line was written on the backside in tiny handwriting- “never let me go”.

Friday, July 22, 2011

This was my 2nd Birthday without you...
I miss the birthday mornings when you used to wake me up with a smile, wishes, card, pen, book and cadbury. I used to wait for that eagerly. So eagerly. Birthdays do not seem happy anymore. I used to get the things I ever thought of. They were small but full of love. Your love :).
Birthdays are not same anymore.
I wake up with the pain of not having you there anymore.
I wake up with the nothingness inside.
I wake up with a feeling that no one will be there in the kitchen making murighonto and chingri malaikari for me.
I wake up with a vacuum in my heart.
I wake up with whatever you taught me and I smile.
I check my mobile to see your smiling face and I smile.
The day passes well...I get gifts...I cut the cake...went out to have dinner...Swissotel this year...But there is nobody backhome to tell the stories...nobody to ask every small details and give small inputs...
Life has taught me to come out of my utopia...to accept the rough life...n to forget the fairy tales...
May be there is an alter world...there is a place where you can watch me...n may be I am there too...just now smiling with you...You are stroking your hand lightly on my head n trying to calm me down...
Another 20th July...another B'day...another day with gifts n surprizes...

without You..

Monday, November 10, 2008

~The green leaf~

The green leaf
And the black eye;
Create a sensation
With a hidden sigh!!!

Holding hands
Or kissing again;
Heart is crying
It’s all about brain!!!

Nice words
Long lost music
Lost somewhere
Like a broken brick!!!

Silence silence
Come to me please;
I am lost in sound
Let my heart release!!!

Friday, April 18, 2008

~MYSTIC DESERT~

Everyday...
It kills my life,
With a sharp knife!
Blood flows everyside;
And I scream everynight.

Every new day,
Comes with same old ray;
And...
I wish it to turn night;
Mystic starry and bright.
Life stops me then...
With illusions
To capture my brain.
Hope and dreams to
Hold me back;
Courage to break them...
I alwayz lack.

Losing my mind it seems
Or just another illuding scream!
Lost as dark is lost in dark;
Invisible as spark
Is visible in sparks.

Closing my eyes....
I wont do;
As I call it desert of life...
and I want to know...

I want to know
The end of pain;
Want to know where...
Happiness in tears do rain!!!

Want to send u...
The Rainy smell;
To ring your heart's bell.
To let you know...
It's life - taught me....
To love you

Monday, November 19, 2007

Bus-Stop

Cold cold breeze
on my face;
Icy cool drops...of rain;
Taking me to a trip to
Down memory lane.

The lanes become
Dark and dirty;
Rain becomes faster;
Nothingness...caught me then,
When I become a loner again...

What is there left to say,
May be...I wasn't right anyway

Thursday, June 28, 2007

~Transformation~

Some bloody things I need to say,
Please don't runaway...
When you come closer
I wanna love you forever...


I wish I was your love
I wish you were mine.
I watch your smile;
I watch when you are crying.
Oh! I wish you were mine!

And then...
Life took an "U"-turn;
I couldn't find the way to return.
I was stuck in that dark!!!
Couldn't even see any mark...

I was lost inside myself,
Emptiness hold me...my innerself.
Tired I was...broken from inside
Just then you came like a lightening tide!!!

I was crying in the dark...was trying to hold on
No one could hear...I was all alone...
All that I craved someone to love...
You make me close my eyes...and hold your hand
I...that time felt your warmth...

A new path you made...saved me from death;
Came so closer...became my lover.
Now something...i wanna say...
I know you won't runaway...
All I need is you...only you;
Oh darling! be mine...I love you.

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

~Rain~

DEDICATED TO- ABHIRUP CHAKRABARTY
Written down while I was standing at a ghaat...

I sensed the breeze
On my face...
Cold... Wet...
I heard the sound
of water...
Silent... Sweet...
I saw the twilight
Black... Dark...
I felt the sky higher
Clouds... Sparks...
And then,
I saw the rain coming...


WHERE ARE YOU?

I wanna get drenched in rain...
Only with you...

&Atlast with a phone call...

Rain has come...
Along with you...

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

~COMING BACK INTO THE LIFE~

You saved my heart
Without knowing me;
You saved my dream
When you heard my scream...
My soul was lost
It was then saved by you...
You came into my life;
You...saved my life.

You helped me out;
Why did you do it?
I don't know the reason;
Don't even want to...
All I know that
You were like a shower
On a deserted flower.

It was time
To sink or to swim...
When...you came along;
You pulled me out...
Of the troubles...
I was in.

I stopped myself from
Finding a way of my own;
I don't know
How did you know...that
I was alone.

I was hanging by a thread
I was sinking... and
I was waiting to become dead!!!

You came...And
You've shown me colours...of life...
You saved my life...
You became my life!!!
And made my life.

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

For you dear

For you

I am not yours, not lost in you,
Not lost, although I long to be
Lost as a candle lit at noon,
Lost as a snowflake in the sea.

You love me, and I find you still
A spirit beautiful and bright,
Yet I am I, who long to be
Lost as a light is lost in light.

Oh plunge me deep in love -- put out
My senses, leave me deaf and blind,
Swept by the tempest of your love,
A taper in a rushing wind.

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

~HEART~

Dedicated to- To the biggest IDIOT (The Abnormal ) of this earth
Sorry for dedicating...

In my dream...
I look back
to that day...
the day when
I was me...

The joy of innocence...
with pure heart;
the day of smile,
without being hurt...

I desire a time
A time for nothing,
Just you and me...
And silence...
When we talk nothing...

Your arms around
my shoulder...
To offer me rest.
With warmth and care.

I won't ask for love
That's not mine.
But You can't be lost...
You were never mine...

I never own you;
I cannot even ask for.
I find myself lonely...
At the core.

I don't know
What i want,
Just like a puppet;
I'm playing my part...

Don't come
To save me...
This is my world
The real me...

Thursday, February 15, 2007

~Blue of Mind~

Feeling blue...
Mid of roses...
Color...
Of flower...
Heart is crying...
It's true...

I don't know...
My heart's desire...
Eyes are raining...
Gloomy season...
I want to run...away...
Far... and far...

Love is in the air...
Moon is so clear...
Candles are glowing...
But eyes are raining...
Far away from shining...

Blue is mind...
Blue is heart...
Blue is feelings...
Rainbow gone...
Gone the rainbow...
Cold breeze....on my face...
I... close my eyes...

Close eyes don't pain...
And now...
There is only rain...

Friday, February 09, 2007

~MEMORIES~

Dedicated to- Shuvadeep Ghosh
Sorry to- Shuvadeep Ghosh

A long night...
No one inside,
Scattered dreams...
Hot tears...
Rolling down...
down...
and down...

I've seen him
In all hues...
All through smile
and joys...
But never
to a river of tears....
may be,
I never seen
him all...
Endless memories
laughter and worries
trudge me back...
Those golden days
Gone...
Gone are those days...

I never know
I could be lost,
so lost...
Ever in my life
Days go on...
Life moves on...
Only I am in
some deep slumber...

The ending seems
Nearer...
I can feel it
Closer...
Closer...
And closer...

I want to lie down
Next to him
In the shores....
I have known
All the life...
The rainbow
of feelings...
I could possibly
ever know...

I wish
To look back again
On the very few
Times of mine...
When I would wake up
With a smile...
And a flicker of hope
To be with him...

I've always wondered
Who he was...
Without whom
My days are like hell
Night seems to be
Endless deep pits
Where I tread along
As if in a trance...

I know
It's high time
to move on...
But each step
of mine... ahead...
Brings in to my mind
His foot prints...

the prints
so hardly fixed...

I know
The pain he felt
Was for me...
The pain of
Leaving me astray...
But...
he's gone...
Away...
Away...
And away...

And me?
I don't know...
Where to go...

Thursday, February 01, 2007

Forever Darling, ...always

Special thanks to- Sudipto Mukherji

Tomorrow is never guaranteed
we take for granted time
and all our worthwhile deeds
if i should die before i wake
and the lord my soul does take
i have felt the earthquake
understand my bliss
know before i die
that i have never felt so nice
in the spirit of your arms

Tomorrow- a big word...a big uncertainty...
But do present means anything???
Present too is nothing but uncertainty.. nothing but pain...
Then why tomorrow only?
May be itz better for my heart to die before i wake...
But my conscience will not allow it...

So, in the end...this poem again representing nothing....as usual
Forgive me...

Thursday, January 04, 2007

Love:- The ParadoX

A new year
begins
with a blast
of fun...
in the sky...
but
not for all...
I saw,
the moonless night...up
behind fun
so dark
from inside...

The first night...
has secrets
in its mind...
has tears
and pains...

look...
they are dancing
in rain...
and here
someone is
cutting vein...

does hurting a heart
give pain?
and
breaking a heart???
.........................................
.........................................
the night smiles...
the curse...
the black
says, "come on"
this is life
which 'can cut a heart
by a
sharp knife...


The first night
bleeds pain...
while cutting
the vein...

someone cries...
shouts...
"life is a bluff
stop this game...
because...
I'm having pain..."

The night
becomes black
its bloody smile
becomes laughter...
It says,
"It's the curse
of life...
It's the curse
of heart...
It's the curse
of love...
It's love
brings you
to hurt...

Meaningless
is love...
which cuts
the heart...
So,
forget love
and
avoid being hurt...

The truth
of life...
"Don't die...
just
Forget love
and fly"...

May be it doesn't matter whether we love someone or not...it doesn't matter whether we are getting love back or not... because love is unconditional... love can never be selfish... may be thats why even a broken heart sometimes deliver a laughter to its sweetheart... who broke it...

IRONY & RIDICULE...!!!

Oh! all bullshits...

So, just be a successful person...and to become a successful person forget all your feelings... because in the end... Career does matter... heart doesn't...

I'm SORRY...
i DON'T KNOW WHAT LOVE IS...

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

~BLACK~

Evening sky
Depressed sun
Going down
Emerged
Into dark…

Sky is not black
It’s crimson
Colour of blood
Or, just sky?
Unsolved mystery
I cry……

Life
Blossoms at night
When
There is no light
Only
Passion is bright…

Night is rainbow
Of heaven
Or, hell?
Of passion
Or, pain?

Dark lanes
On earth…
On mind…
Earth suffocates
So am I…
Are you blind?

Your touch
Warm breath
You…
Oh hell!!!
You said,
“It’s heaven”!!!

“You are lost”
Says my brain

Creation
Or, destruction?
Pain
Or, passion?
Life
Goes on……

Night ends
Streetlamps went out
So as my shout…

I stop
My soul gets lost
Once again…
To my brain
Or, to pain?

It’s a new day
With nothing new
With another evening…
With another night…
Another fight…
Between my soul
And my mind…

I cry……

I cry
For my night…

My soul says
“Oh, save me”
I……….
Close my eyes
“Forgive me”