~BATTLE~

Dark cloud
In the sky;
Days are hot
Bright and dry!!!

End seemed so near;
Yet I survived
Out of fear.

Fire and smoke;
Burn my eyes!!!
Everyday...
My heart cries.

Crazy to solve the jigsaw
Day by day
Life has become
A seesaw.


Burning pain
All the time;
Living life...
Seems like crime.

Fighting it
Became my trend...
Can't help...
Itz life...My best friend.

~UNSPOKEN~

I don't always tell you,
That the joy you bring;
Brightened my way...

I don't always tell you,
Your smile...
Makes me smile;
The tears you've made
Happy by sharing
You cared...

I don't always tell you,
That the love you give
Brightened everyday I live.

I don't always tell you,
That you eyes...
Touche my senses;
Gives me comfort,
With hugs and kisses.

Makes me feel you closer...
Even when you are too far;
But the most important of all
You cherish my hopes and dreams.

I don't always tell you,
How much I love you
The memories we've known
All the laughter and fun.

And I just want to say
On this day, I set apart...
Darling I love you..
With all my heart.

~MYSTIC DESERT~

Everyday...
It kills my life,
With a sharp knife!
Blood flows everyside;
And I scream everynight.

Every new day,
Comes with same old ray;
And...
I wish it to turn night;
Mystic starry and bright.
Life stops me then...
With illusions
To capture my brain.
Hope and dreams to
Hold me back;
Courage to break them...
I alwayz lack.

Losing my mind it seems
Or just another illuding scream!
Lost as dark is lost in dark;
Invisible as spark
Is visible in sparks.

Closing my eyes....
I wont do;
As I call it desert of life...
and I want to know...

I want to know
The end of pain;
Want to know where...
Happiness in tears do rain!!!

Want to send u...
The Rainy smell;
To ring your heart's bell.
To let you know...
It's life - taught me....
To love you

~Blank Thoughts~

It sometimes takes me
By surprize...
Your eyes hit Just between
My eyes.
A smile and
Small kiss for me
Sometime feels
So dreamy!!!
And when
the dreams comes true...
It seems closing my eyes
To not to feel blue.

Always l will be here,
Holding hands forever
coloring your silence
Removing all the tears,
My heart will be here
waiting for you;
Only for you dear...

~COLOUR OF LOVE~

When afternoon comes
to meet evening...
The wind starts flirting
Silence starts singing;
Loneliness laughing!

But...
My anger feels nothing.

Rain starts dancing;
Birds are partying...

But...
Anger denies everything.

The winter breeze
Washes my tear...
And bring to me
A flowing river...

Darkness thickens
Becomes darker...
And suddenly
It was full of cracker!!!

Love speaks;

"Life full of lights,
Look at it;
Starry and so bright..."

Tears start vanishing
And becomes pearl...when
Moon sent his message
"Look at me...My girl"

I felt warmth
And close my eyes;
Felt your kiss
On my lips.

Don't come...
Screams anger!!!
Love smiles;
"Come closer"...

Night comes
With magical moonbeam
And we slept...
Inside our dream...

~SOHOJAATRI~

Monta udaas holo abaar,
Ure chole gelo bohudur,
Haaralo se koto ochena;
Koto nishobdo ekla dupur...

Ami bose roi saanjher aashay;
Jodi ase se sujan-majhi,
Koto dheu periye ochenar khoje
Niye jete hobe raaji...

Aami konodin dub dite chaini,
Jete chaaini otoler gohone;
Tobu dube gechi kaalo joler niche,
Mishe gechi jibon- morone...

Aaj bose aachhi tor dike taakiye;
Bariyechi mor haat;
Jete chas jodi aye mor saathe,
Hoyto Kete jaabe ei raat...

Journey~ towards=====>???

Erokom keno hoy je amra ja bhabi seta hoy na?
Jeta korte chai seta korte paari na?
Erokom keno hoy je amader past ta read-only, r future ta not accessible?

Jaanina, hoyto amader mon ta sab somoy jeta kothin jeta jana nei sei ojanar dike tene niye jay...
sobai kei ki niye jay?
naki sudhu amaake?

Proshno gulor utor paoa keno jay na?
Din er por din jokhon prosno gulo moner modhye ghore uttor gulo paoa jay na...
Tarpor jedin prosno gulo palte jay uttor ta tokhon keno paai?

Xam sesh hobar por ki ar sei prosno gulor value thaake?

Janina...
Tobe amaar kachhe thaake na...

Read-only file access kore kono laav hoy na....

Life is alwayz enjoyable to me... atleast I try to do that...
& that very moment life started throwing challenges to me...

I enjoy that.. I love to see myself as a winner...
Tobe sab juddho ki jeta jay?

For me life is a journey...where we meet loads of people...
Some of them become friends.. some remain unknown... some find their station in the mid-way...
& some of them becomes companions for the rest of the journey...
& the journey is full of adventure....
a journey towards unknown destination....

tobu hariye jete ichhe hoy majhe majhe..hoyto...
Ojanar kachhe...Ojanaar pothe...Ojanaar kole....matha rekhe

Bus-Stop

Cold cold breeze
on my face;
Icy cool drops...of rain;
Taking me to a trip to
Down memory lane.

The lanes become
Dark and dirty;
Rain becomes faster;
Nothingness...caught me then,
When I become a loner again...

What is there left to say,
May be...I wasn't right anyway

~U-TURN~

Slowly, Silently
Darkness falls down
in my mind;
With the touch...
Warmth of your breath;
Passion...one of a kind.

I became dead once;
Because of my poisonous love
for you...
But I fought back
To won the battle;
Do you know?

And today I'm alive...
No more death...
Itz life... I do believe.

~JUST NOW~

[PENNED IT DOWN IN MOBILE.....WITHOUT ANY THOUGHT...]

Just now
I felt helpless;
Just now
I felt your embrace.
Just now
I wanted to runaway
Just now
You've shown me the right way.
Just now
I closed my eyes in dark;
Just now
You brought to me the right mark.
Just now
I wanted to die!!!
Just now
You asked me to give it a try.
Just now
I found you nowhere...
Just now
I saw you came closer.
Just now
I wanted to count what I have
I found nothing but your love.

~The Lost Graveyard...~

The flood of emotion…
Has started again;
While I was walking…
Down the memory lane.

It seemed a long ago…
I traveled this way;
With no one to call friend…
With no place to stay!!!

I then found a new lane;
Where I wanted to die;
Where I wanted to survive;
Where I became insane!!!

And all my emotions died…
But I survived!!!
The ebb of emotion
With no love…only rage…
With less smile…lesser courage.

The memory lane…
Where I lost my soul;
There I found light today…
All colours…but not grey.

I found it back;
The rainbow of emotions…
The shining smile…
The raining tears…
The warm affection…and care.

With tears rolling down
I found myself standing
At the graveyard of my past…
Staring at a new dawn…
A new beginning atlast

8simple things....

I got tagged by my friend Bubai aka Sushir Rahaman....nearly 2weeks ago..but I failed to manage some time for this post...so a gig SORRY to him :)

So, please hold ur breath...

1.)I sometimes try to write some useless things...& for that I love to think myself as a poem writter.

2.)Nodoubt I'm a dreamer...but only dreamz...no nightmares[:P]

3.)I'm quite a crackpot...all the strangest things alwyz happen to me[:P]

4.)I believe I'm the worst person u can have ever seen...

5.)I'm alwyz into muzic..my 2nd 3rd or 4th love may be(pun intended)

6.)Books-thats one thing my passion....

7.)oh & yaa..photography started being my hobby now a dayz[:P]

8.) may be the most whimsical one on this earth...i love everything & nothing at the same time...

but still i love to love & being in love...hate to hate & being hated...

now anything left????did u really get anything from this???[:P]

~Transformation~

Some bloody things I need to say,
Please don't runaway...
When you come closer
I wanna love you forever...


I wish I was your love
I wish you were mine.
I watch your smile;
I watch when you are crying.
Oh! I wish you were mine!

And then...
Life took an "U"-turn;
I couldn't find the way to return.
I was stuck in that dark!!!
Couldn't even see any mark...

I was lost inside myself,
Emptiness hold me...my innerself.
Tired I was...broken from inside
Just then you came like a lightening tide!!!

I was crying in the dark...was trying to hold on
No one could hear...I was all alone...
All that I craved someone to love...
You make me close my eyes...and hold your hand
I...that time felt your warmth...

A new path you made...saved me from death;
Came so closer...became my lover.
Now something...i wanna say...
I know you won't runaway...
All I need is you...only you;
Oh darling! be mine...I love you.

~LIFE~

Life has become a medley
Of pain and tear.
Nothing did seem clear.
Everything became so obscure
And dark…
Even light used to make me nark!!!
Was lost inside a maze;
Wish I could become raze.
But I got over;
Didn’t end my life with
A razor!!!
And then I saw another sight
So full of light;
With no grudges of past
I stand up from the
Poisonous dust…
And there began a new journey,
With love, faith and trust.

I'll be watching you

STING lyrics

~Rain~

DEDICATED TO- ABHIRUP CHAKRABARTY
Written down while I was standing at a ghaat...

I sensed the breeze
On my face...
Cold... Wet...
I heard the sound
of water...
Silent... Sweet...
I saw the twilight
Black... Dark...
I felt the sky higher
Clouds... Sparks...
And then,
I saw the rain coming...


WHERE ARE YOU?

I wanna get drenched in rain...
Only with you...

&Atlast with a phone call...

Rain has come...
Along with you...

~COMING BACK INTO THE LIFE~

You saved my heart
Without knowing me;
You saved my dream
When you heard my scream...
My soul was lost
It was then saved by you...
You came into my life;
You...saved my life.

You helped me out;
Why did you do it?
I don't know the reason;
Don't even want to...
All I know that
You were like a shower
On a deserted flower.

It was time
To sink or to swim...
When...you came along;
You pulled me out...
Of the troubles...
I was in.

I stopped myself from
Finding a way of my own;
I don't know
How did you know...that
I was alone.

I was hanging by a thread
I was sinking... and
I was waiting to become dead!!!

You came...And
You've shown me colours...of life...
You saved my life...
You became my life!!!
And made my life.

For you dear

For you

I am not yours, not lost in you,
Not lost, although I long to be
Lost as a candle lit at noon,
Lost as a snowflake in the sea.

You love me, and I find you still
A spirit beautiful and bright,
Yet I am I, who long to be
Lost as a light is lost in light.

Oh plunge me deep in love -- put out
My senses, leave me deaf and blind,
Swept by the tempest of your love,
A taper in a rushing wind.

~LOVER or TRAITOR~

I wanna say My heartiest sorry to some people.....

Behind the closed door
One small bed;
You and me...
Standing on the floor...

I felt love;
I felt warmth
And I made love!!!
But I don't know how,
I missed you!!!

I closed my eyes;
I felt you...
Inside me!!!
I smiled;
I cried;
I shouted;
I lost it...
I lost it all... to you!!!

But,
It wasn't you...
It can never be you.
But the touch was yours!!!
Inside my mind,
I made myself blind...
And opened up my mind...

But
Don't ever close your eyes...
And never open up your mind.
I'm your present
And I stay there inside your mind...
That's all you'll able to find!!!

So, Don't ever close your eyes;
I don't want you to pay the price.
You are the winner...
Don't make yourself the looser!!!
I've seen your soul
Which you never knew... That i could...
May be, it was a sin
But your soul...there I've seen...
Who are you...
The real you!!!

I'm a creep:
A fucking nonsense!!!
So, don't close your eyes...
On my word...
That makes no sense...

DISEASE

This one is the most arbitly written poem ever by me... it has no start & no end...sorry to all

You are a drug
I'm addicted...
I'm affected...
I'm rejected!!!
It's irony...
That you are my medicine.
But I don't need it!!!
Loving you is a sin;
A crime Which is only mine...
And yet I don't want medicine,
Angel of Death is calling...