For you dear

For you

I am not yours, not lost in you,
Not lost, although I long to be
Lost as a candle lit at noon,
Lost as a snowflake in the sea.

You love me, and I find you still
A spirit beautiful and bright,
Yet I am I, who long to be
Lost as a light is lost in light.

Oh plunge me deep in love -- put out
My senses, leave me deaf and blind,
Swept by the tempest of your love,
A taper in a rushing wind.

~LOVER or TRAITOR~

I wanna say My heartiest sorry to some people.....

Behind the closed door
One small bed;
You and me...
Standing on the floor...

I felt love;
I felt warmth
And I made love!!!
But I don't know how,
I missed you!!!

I closed my eyes;
I felt you...
Inside me!!!
I smiled;
I cried;
I shouted;
I lost it...
I lost it all... to you!!!

But,
It wasn't you...
It can never be you.
But the touch was yours!!!
Inside my mind,
I made myself blind...
And opened up my mind...

But
Don't ever close your eyes...
And never open up your mind.
I'm your present
And I stay there inside your mind...
That's all you'll able to find!!!

So, Don't ever close your eyes;
I don't want you to pay the price.
You are the winner...
Don't make yourself the looser!!!
I've seen your soul
Which you never knew... That i could...
May be, it was a sin
But your soul...there I've seen...
Who are you...
The real you!!!

I'm a creep:
A fucking nonsense!!!
So, don't close your eyes...
On my word...
That makes no sense...

DISEASE

This one is the most arbitly written poem ever by me... it has no start & no end...sorry to all

You are a drug
I'm addicted...
I'm affected...
I'm rejected!!!
It's irony...
That you are my medicine.
But I don't need it!!!
Loving you is a sin;
A crime Which is only mine...
And yet I don't want medicine,
Angel of Death is calling...

HARA-KIRI

Aaj hothat
akash ta abaar mone holo chena,
Aaj hothat
abaar jeno holam aanmona..
Aaj hothat
haariye gelam otit din er srote;
Aaj hothat
abaar ichhe holo amaar ushno hote...
Aaj hothat
Tomar smriti phirchhe baarbaar,
Aaj ki tobe
tomay aami haralam abaar...