ILLUSION???

Once
On a evening
Indolence hold my hand
And took me
To a dark land….
It asked me to believe;
And I saw
Flowers in a dozen…
In my mind
All of a sudden…

And
I started my journey…
Leaving my root…
Behind…
So free
From mind…
But not blind…
With trust
In my heart…
With chances
Of getting hurt…

I……
Saw a spin on path
Lights gone…
Lighter…
Closed my eyes…
No roses were there
Only another twist
On the path…
I……
Left my desires
Only dreams came
With me…
On desert…
On lonely path…
In search of light……

The search did seem
Meaningless…
Suddenly…
With a fragrance
I found a pathway
With a new beam of ray…

You….
Were standing there
With stretched arms
Full of warmth…
As if you crave
All my pain
On you like rain…
That moment…
Mesmerized my thought…
When I felt no hurt…
And found my head
Resting…
On your shoulder…
So happy
Felt like dying
I couldn’t…
But crying…

~BACK TO MOON~

Clouds
In the sky…
Floating.
Mind…
A river
Flowing…
Or,
Flying high!!!

Unworthy
Oh you!
Says brain,
See life…
Stop
Taking pain…

Heart laughs,
“I……
Have seen pain…
Still
I laugh…
I get wet…
In rain…”

Brain laughs,
“You…
Are here
To live…
Not to shed
Bloody tear…”

Clouds
Black…
Hides sun…
It says,
“Don’t cry…
I will
Come back…”

Life
Mortal…
Possessions
Material…
What we feel
So unreal…
It is real

It’s night…
When
We dream…
We desire…
We…
Close eyes
Pain dies???

We search
Eldorado…
A journey
Never ending…
Destination
Seems pseudo…

World
A stage…
Clowns
Are we…
So free
But
Inside a cage

Distorted…
Colorless…
It’s death?
Oh you
Don’t die…
Close
Your eyes…
Fly…
There is
A sky…

Afternoon Sun…
On it’s high…
Look at it
And
Close your eye
Inside you…
See the moon
Even
In afternoon…

~BLACK~

Evening sky
Depressed sun
Going down
Emerged
Into dark…

Sky is not black
It’s crimson
Colour of blood
Or, just sky?
Unsolved mystery
I cry……

Life
Blossoms at night
When
There is no light
Only
Passion is bright…

Night is rainbow
Of heaven
Or, hell?
Of passion
Or, pain?

Dark lanes
On earth…
On mind…
Earth suffocates
So am I…
Are you blind?

Your touch
Warm breath
You…
Oh hell!!!
You said,
“It’s heaven”!!!

“You are lost”
Says my brain

Creation
Or, destruction?
Pain
Or, passion?
Life
Goes on……

Night ends
Streetlamps went out
So as my shout…

I stop
My soul gets lost
Once again…
To my brain
Or, to pain?

It’s a new day
With nothing new
With another evening…
With another night…
Another fight…
Between my soul
And my mind…

I cry……

I cry
For my night…

My soul says
“Oh, save me”
I……….
Close my eyes
“Forgive me”

~BONDHON~

Raater nirjonotay
Tarader majhe
Lukiye thaake aandhaar

Amar moner majhe
Ami phire asi…
Tobu baarebaar……

Sararaat jege
Bhorer sopne
Ke jeno jay chhunye
Hese uthi aami
Chupisaare taar
Ushno poros peye…

Chokhe rekhe chokh
Haate rakhe taar haat
Kepe uthi aami…
Hoi onto rongo…

Tobu jeno aaj
Khusi noy mon...
Se bujhi harabe...
Ei nibir songo…
Dite chayna hote
Ei sopno ke bhongo…

Byakul hridoy kede othe
Baarebaare kore prosno
Chhere jodi jabei tumi
Keno ele mor saamne…
Duhaat bariye
Apon kore…
Niye gele keno…
Swarger nondon kanone…

Mon bole othe…
Kedona hridoy...
Valobasha jeno khoniker …
chokher joler baandhonete bedhe
thaakte bolona take chirokaal…

Kono ekkaale…
Kono eksthaane…
Hoyto peleo paabe…
tomar hridoy phire…
Pichhutaane bedhe…
Hariyona tare…
Diyona jete bohudure…
Se valobasha chirotore…

Life Goes On...............

That night... it was year end... nearly 10months ago......

He called me up... we're chatting... everything was fine... and I was happy... some problems which were there even a few dayz ago..those were vanished.....

But..no..... sometimes life proves us wrong... Dead wrong...

we're laughing....and he said... he proposed someone....!!!
I couldn't believe my own ears.... I thought he must be joking....

No... he wasn't...

"Friendship often ends in love...
Love in friendship???
Never...."

It was a test-time for our friendship..which came to a dead end......

I thought I can never forgive him...

2months later... one night I received a phone call from him... not very casual...but he was trying to...

and i was astonished by myself... i saw that i forgave him... i didn't want him to regret..so i smiled.... & talked in a very casual manner...

He resumed our friendship...today again we use to talk very friendly... yaa...something is still there in my heart... but...something are never meant for you...

Today I am not unhappy....infact very happy with my life...so...thought to share this story in my blog...

After all Life goes on...

Even Dead ends are not Dead...

A night- A Ghost- &, A Girl

Blue night
Dreams come…
Dreams gone…
A dark room,
And
A small red light…

A girl…
Sleeping……
Unconscious…
Dreaming deeply…
Smiling…
For
Someone special…

Innocence…
On her face,
Her dream
Makes her smile,
She doesn’t know
It’s fragile…

She was crying
Before sleeping
Then
She slept…
Frustration
Was on her face…

Night is ending
I touched her…
Wanted
To take her
To heaven…
But…
Her soul denies…

But,
It’s crying…
For refusing…

Poor girl
Come with me…
Avoid pain…
It’s insane…

She says…

“Happiness in pain…
Hope in pain…
Laughter in pain…

These are what
She seeks…
And

She knows…
She is insane…”

She says..

“Heaven doesn’t need her
So,
She chooses hell…

It’s her journey…
She wants to go
Alone…
In the light…
In the dark…
In hells sin…
Or,
In heavens spark…”

Oh!
I’ve to go…
It’s morning…
My destiny is calling…

She wakes up…
Saw the sky
The sun is bright…
She moves out of sight…

I pray…
I pray for her…
It’s a new day…
Hope she’ll find…
A new ray…
Which won’t
Make her blind…

tHE rOAD nOT TAKEN-3

What happens
When you feel
All you ever had
leaves?
All you ever seen
Disappears?
All you ever draw
fades?

nothing happen.....bcoz....what more can happen????
sometimes life comes to an dead end........but we have to live.......
why should someone sacrifice????
there is two way....sometime to same destination...
sometimes..one to heaven...
another to hell......

but if you choose the way to hell....just try to find good in bad...what the actual things we do in life..we seek bad in good most of the time......

so for a change if we try to seek good in bad...it can cause li'l bit of happiness...may be.....

PHIRE ASAR SOPNO

Ondhokar er haatchhani
Bistrito shunyota
Ar,
Mone bishonnota……

Tumi
Amar onekdin er bondhu
Onek chup kotha…
Osfuto bedonar shrota…
Amar bondho moner sindhu…

Tumi
Ekjholok tatka batas…
Snigdhota…
Ami kolonkito
Ondhokaarer nisshash…

Tumi
Sthaan dao amake
Chokher taray…
Hridoy majhe…
Ami klanto
Porishranto…

Ami
Vese cholechi
Amaake atkano
Osombhob…
Tobu……
Aj atok hote chai
Tomar ushno alingone
Tomar moner ongone…

Jhor aschhe
Chardik jhapsa…
Ar amar mone
Hotasha…

Somoy
Chole jachhe…
Rekhe jachhe
Kichhu afshosh
Ar
Chhoto chhoto kichhu dirghoshas……

Tumi
Ekbaar egiye eso…
Somoy chole jabar agey……
Jhoro batas…
Haat ta barao
Ami phire asbo
Eta amar asshas
Ar, hoyto
Tomar bishhas…

It's Raining

t’s green
It’s dark
It’s raining

Silence
Everywhere…

In mind???

One, two
Drops…
Of rain…
Of tear…

Night…
Music…
Of mystery…
Of life…
Of death…
Of dark…
Of light???

Rebirth
Or
Another journey?
Towards death…
Death of life…
Death of image…
Death of faith…

Images…
Fades away…
People…
Grew up…
Loneliness…
Becomes friend…
A new ray…
Towards life…
Towards heart…
Oh hell!!!
These hurt…

Sky
Crying…
Stupid
It’s raining…

DREAM OF A GIRL

Don’t come to me

Don’t look at me…

Why do you?

Am I going insane?

When the moon

Give rays

On earth,

On my memory lane…

The touch

I treasure…

Do I really?

Or it’s just pleasure?

Sometimes… sometimes… sometimes… we can’t control… or may be, we don’t want to control!!! Our brain and our heart both indulge in a war… a war of to be or not to be… but still everything happens… because it happens… because it is destined to happen…

The deep blue night

Two souls became one

Or, two half souls?

Is it true that when two persons love each other (as lover) they become one soul? But, the devilish truth behind this word is when two souls become one then the result is two half souls… pardon me… correct me… if you find it wrong…

Differences erased

By our brains…

And,

Our brains united…

Our souls didn’t.

I cried…

But

Then I couldn’t…

Lips locked

I’m locked inside you

My soul didn’t lock…

But your soul was screaming

“PLEASE DON’T GO!”

I sacrificed…

Everything I possess

“You are insane”

My heart says-

To my brain…

Prince Charming, Romeo, and loads…

A girl grow up… with a dream, that one day her Prince Charming will come riding a horse to take her with him…

The girl grows up… becomes a lady… a women… becomes successful… professionally very successful… but the dream is still young… as it was the 1st day.. When she read “mills and boons”… or “love story” first time…

But … but… but…

One day she saw her dreams are smashed… she saw that her dreams are smashed… and she is sleeping with a man… a successful man… a loving boyfriend… partner… or husband… but not his Prince Charming!!!

The Slap of Reality!!!

Whisper of a Dead Soul

The night
The moon
And you…

So near
Yet
So far…

Don’t cry…
Stay here
To see
Worlds’ cry!!!

Itz dark,
Itz black,
Blackhole?

Itz life
Living death…
Hell?
Or just,
Not heaven…

Come here
Sit once…
Can you?
Tell me
Can you?
Only you?

I wish…
You can,
You wish
You can…
Time wishes
You can’t

Cold night…
Cold touch…
Your touch…
So cold!!!

Dreams…
Broken…

My graveyard…
White flowers…
Tears…

But you...
Come here
Feel me…
Can you???

My heart
Still beats…

For love…
For life…
For you…

tHE rOAD nOT TAKEN-2

tell me-

have you ever faced the situation...where you are standing between 2 very special person of your life????

okay.. let me guess...90%yes, 10%no lucky these 10%....not everyone is so lucky...

and then you start thinking what should you do... because....most of the time you find it difficult to choose between them...and yaa there you are..you are absolutely right...

none of them is wrong....

the thing is just...one of them is right...& the other one is more right.....

situation is easier..when one is wrong...but when both are right..trust me..it is tougher....

& you have to choose one way..you can't travel on both......


to be contd...

tHE rOAD nOT TAKEN

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
and sorry I could not travel both
and be one traveler, long i stood
and looked down one as far as i could
to where it bent in the undergrowth;
then took the other, as just as fair,
and having perhaps the better claim.
because...............................................
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I shall be telling this with a sigh
somewhere ages and ages hence;
two roads diverged in a wood, and i-
i took the one less traveled by;
and that has made all the difference.....

Sometimes in our life...same situation arises...but what to do??? what should we do? what can we do???

(TO BE CONTD...)

EXPECTATIONS

EXPECTATION – a big word… we expect from ourselves, from our friends, from our parents, from loved one…(not to forget about politicians too…we expect from them also after all)…

We can never realise, from where these expectations come from… may be , from that very moment when a child born… born with lots of happiness & EXPECTATIONS… sometimes it becomes unbearable coz…sometimes our expectations collided with our parents’…& others…

Then comes our friends… we should not forget that everyone is an individual… everyone thinks in a different way… sometimes we expect our friends to do something, but they don’t & vice versa… & problem starts…sometimes we adjust…bcoz no one wants to loose a friend…but…the crack on the glass exists forever…

& our loved one…yaa…if we love someone…why do we want to change li’l things in them…sometimes they don’t like something about us… problem starts…& ends in a break off… we expect that he’ll give us the 1^st priority… but we forgot he has his family…& friends… so, we can’t expect 100% priority all the time…

I can say that, in my house , my parents want my attention.. yaa they want… & I know that they are my 1^st priority… though sometimes it creates pressure on me… but, again they expect these from me… & so.. now a dayz I stopped expecting from anyone,,, why should I expect???... Whenever expectations become high…it started hurting…… may be, some people will call you by different names… just to pinch you… but thatz better than getting hurt… & when our parents, friends & loved one hurt us… unintentionally…but it breaks our heart… as we know…an unknown person can’t hurt us… coz..we have no expectations from them…

Still…we’ll continue expecting… may be, thtz life, thatz hope, thatz relationship..thatz love……..

MY LOVE

“LOVE”- Whatz love????.... Is there anyone who knows the answer???.... I guess…..no…no one can…ok…letz try to find it out…. I guess itz a feeling… a feeling straight from the core of the heart… a pleasure for some unknown reason… it shows on our face….when someone falls in love… love- the greatest mystery of this earth…

“Love” is PAIN- a pain for some one….when you love someone….don’t love his/her positive things only….love their negatives also…life is not only white or black….itz black + white…sometimes grey also…when you love someone…& cannot able to express that feelings to him/ her….you enjoy this pain…but…don’t think too much…coz sometimes itz too late…coz…sometimes we fall in love with someone…without realising this…&…someday when we saw that person with someone else…our pain starts…but we can’t express…we die every moment for that person… but…cannot express that feeling…

“Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes...just be an illusion”

“LOVE”- is FEAR…fear to loose someone…who is our life…even sometimes we fall for someone who is friend…to whom we share every small things…but cannot share a simple but great feeling…& when that person go far way…it hurts…trust me…it really hurts…itz better to have a broken hand or knee….than a broken heart… we fear…that may be if we disclose our feelings to that person… he/she will go away from us…but thatz not true…may be later we realise that if we expressed our feelings earlier….may be this person could be mine…though in love itz never too late…don’t ever waste an opportunity to express your love…but itz tough to express especially when you love someone who is your closest buddy….itz the toughest job on this earth… trust me it really the toughest…

“I know someday you’ll have a beautiful life….

I know you’ll be a star, in somebody else’s sky….

But why, why, why can’t it be mine…”

Few dayz ago….someone asked me…how long it takes to know someone properly…I didn’t know the answer…then he himself gave me the answer…he said… “don’t take too much time to know someone…coz a whole life is short to know someone…so if you like someone in the very first time…there is nothing wrong in it”…I listened to his words…then thought…ya..may be he was right…he said…if you love someone then express it…if you can’t…then how that person would able to understand your feelings…ya…once again he was right…but…as I said itz tough to express…

"A very small degree of hope is sufficient to cause the birth of love."

From my life I learned one thing…you are the biggest idiot if you can’t express your feelings…I always try to stand beside my love…though he can never understand may be…still I want him to be happy…it really hurts when I see him with other galz but…at least…he is there as a friend… “Something is better than nothing”…no one wants to loose the love of their life…so what if he is with someone else??? That doesn’t make any difference…when it comes to love… &...why should it be?...if it does make any difference then itz not love…LOVE is when I pray for that person without expecting any small things from him…he could be mine…may be not…but I don’t want to loose a friend…I can’t just afford to loose a friend…he is precious enough to loose…unaffordable…he is mine in my own way…in my thoughts…he lives in my heart without even knowing it…if someday he realise this…I know he’ll be mine in reality…

“My LOVE” may be you are reading this article…without realising you are the one I’m talking about…I know you can’t…you never can…

&thatz why I started believing that….

“If you love someone…let him go….

If he comes back to you…he is yours,

If he doesn’t…he never was…”

YOU...............................

You

Came into my life

And turned it to heaven;

With happiness and joy;

In my mindz garden……

Where did you go?

I don’t know;

But without you;

That heaven becomes hell

So, I’m ringing the bell;

I want you to hear,

Please come here,

My dear…….

I’m playing with thunder;

So tired….

Want to die;

I can’t wait for a wonder……

I’m waiting…

Waiting for you;

My life is you

So, I can’t die;

And I don’t know why;

Why do I love you;

You, you and only you……

:MY LOVE:

WHEN YOU LOVED ME

LIKE A BLOW OF WIND

YOU, MY DEAR

TAUGHT ME THE MEANING OF LOVE

& BECAME MY SOUL & MIND;

MY LOVE;

YOU FORGOT ME!

WHEN YOU CAME

YOU CAME LIKE A SPELL OF MAGIC

THEN FORGOT ME?

MAY BE I WAS WRONG

YOU NEVER WERE MINE

BUT HOW CAN I FORGET

DEAR

YOU ARE MY LOVE DIVINE

OH DEAR!

MY HEART DOES CRY

FOR YOU,

MY LOVE WILL NEVER DIE

bizarre

Everyone was doing mess with my other blog... but here also i'll pour my abnormal brain.... not totally abnormal... but partially abnormal........
i was wandering to do something... coz i am getting bored of my life... exams are also going...
My love life is also a bizarre............ letz see.... watz on the card..

CACTUS or FLOWER.....

welcome

my 2nd brain child...... Hope to make it big soon......