~kichu tukro kotha elomelo~

Diner seshe saanjhbelay
Raatpori der vaangchhe ghum;
Klanto shorir, dirghoshas
Sesh bikeler klanto mon...

Raatpori der chokher maya
Jachhe chhnuye klanto mon;
Mon kharaper thonter chhnoway
Smritir kone aaponjon...

Sheeter bikel jomjomaat
Rongin shaal, sutor kaaj;
Sobuj maathe roder aador
Moner kone smritir bhaanj...

ar tarpor...

Rupkothader patay patay
Chupkotha ra chup kore;
Raatpori der golpo pore...
Haariye jaay chupisaare...

~Dhusor~

Laal neel rong paltay
Shada kalo dhusore...
Swopnera sab palti khay
Dusopner dosor-e...

Ichhe chhilo ichhe gulor
pakhna mele orar...
rongin palok chhinnovinno
ichhamrityu amaar...

Ostitwo dori taanchhe
vul ar thik er majhe
jibon ta aj felna boro
laagchena ar kaaje...

Somoy kuriye barano raat
bunto kothar sopno,
kothar jhuli shunyo je aj
kejane kar jonno...

ekta duto muhurto rao
sudhui chup thaake...
somoy ghori thomke geche
ke jane kon baanke...

Smritir goli ghoraghuri
mon manena mon
koshtogulo golay chepe
haaschhi sarakhon :D

~Betha~

Aandhar raate eka bichhanay
Haat paa chhoriye shuye;
Mone pore jaay raater adda
Smriti vaase chokh chhnuye...

Mone pore sab haasi kannay
Golay bondho koshte;
Smriti bare bar mathachara dey
ar bandhe aaste prishte...

Chokh chole jaay khali haat tay
Shunnyo haater pata;
Thomke daray somoy chakay
Na rakha kothar betha...

Bare bare sei khali ayenay
Kono chhaya khuje fera;
Jara chole jay megher deshe
Firey ki aase tara?

~Gotanugotik~

Somantoral rail line er sathe
Kothay jeno jibon badha aache...
Ku jhikjhik chhondobodhho sur-e
Jibon chhote thik orokom kore...

Gotir sathe gotanugotik chola
Notun notun mukh-mukhos er mela;
Mukh paltay somoy chakaar sathe
Notun kono chhaya chhobir gotey...

Tarpor...
Jatra seshe vinno pothe chola...
Roilo pore kichu kotha na bola!

~Bastab~

Eknishto, onabil tobuo
Otripto tomar chhowa...
Chhinno moner onuvutira
Valobasar Mrito Kaya;

Tobu mone hoy
Jhor aaschhe vishon..Gohon;
Dhongsho smriti, bilupto bastab
Vangche sopno, Vangbe monon!

~Harano~

Raat bolechhe raater sathe
Golpo hobe chupkotha te...
Nibir jokhon chokher pata
sopno sukher kono barta...

Hothat kore hothat jokhon
Ghumta vange jokhon tokhon...
Aabchhayate ondhokare
Ekla bhishon ekla ghore...

Sesh kichhudin sesher pothe
Onek smriti jachhe ghete...
Brishti esey jaachhe dhuye
Megher kotha buke niye...

Pother dhaare khelchhe kara
Chena to noy ochena ora...
Boddo je sukh oder chokhe
maatir dewale dukhho dheke...

Bohutol er koner ghore
Ekla je keu ei sohore...
raater sathe raat kaatiye
Bastobe te jaatra kore...

This was my 2nd Birthday without you...
I miss the birthday mornings when you used to wake me up with a smile, wishes, card, pen, book and cadbury. I used to wait for that eagerly. So eagerly. Birthdays do not seem happy anymore. I used to get the things I ever thought of. They were small but full of love. Your love :).
Birthdays are not same anymore.

I wake up with the pain of not having you there anymore.
I wake up with the nothingness inside.
I wake up with a feeling that no one will be there in the kitchen making murighonto and chingri malaikari for me.
I wake up with a vacuum in my heart.
I wake up with whatever you taught me and I smile.
I check my mobile to see your smiling face and I smile.
The day passes well...I get gifts...I cut the cake...went out to have dinner...Swissotel this year...But there is nobody backhome to tell the stories...nobody to ask every small details and give small inputs...
Life has taught me to come out of my utopia...to accept the rough life...n to forget the fairy tales...
May be there is an alter world...there is a place where you can watch me...n may be I am there too...just now smiling with you...You are stroking your hand lightly on my head n trying to calm me down...
Another 20th July...another B'day...another day with gifts n surprizes...

without You..

~raat 2:30er hothat lekha text message~

Bikel sesher sondhye bela,
poob akaashe megher mela;
nodir buke megher chhaya
sandho kalin klanto hawa...
pakhir dana ghorer tane.
mon ta chhote ghorer paane,
ekla bose ekla mon..
ghor hariye mon kemon!
ektu haasi khusir khoj-e
ekla boro vir er majhe...
moner majhe chhobir vir...
ghono kuashay raat govir;
bishonnota ghirchhe vishon,
haar maanche moner shashon;
tobuo vaabi aasbe provat,
jwolbe aalo kaatbe raat...

~Bisonnota~

Bikel theke onno sur-e
Sukh pakhi oi daakche kaar-e;
Sukher golay dukher taan
Kothay jeno haariye pran!

Bikel seshe saanjher saaje
Jwolche aagun moner majhe;
Opekhhate chhilo kaaro
nirjhorer aaj sahos boro!

Saanjh aakashe joler daag
Megher rumal dhaakche raag!
Tobuo hothat brishtipaat
Jokhon
Dukhho sukher dhorlo haat!

~Mon kharaap~

Raat birete monkharaap
Aandhar dhaka gopon paap;
Raat furole purbe din
Roder sathe rongrongin.

Rong er chhite canvas-e
Shada kaalor chaarpaase;
Shada kaaloy jibon chhobi
Chaar haate aaj poth harabi?

Hothat kono pother baanke
Hoyto paabi sopno ta ke;
Sopno boroi sopnomoy
Duhsahoser dey porichoy...

Haariye giye haarabe mon
notun aabeg kichhu puraton;
Porichito jibon vuley
Jibon chole nijer chaal-e.

~elomelo~

Tor jonnye jwelechilam aalo
Likhechilam elomelo kotha...
Toke niye chhilo khusi sab
Haasi kanna valolaga ar betha.

Hoyto sesab thunko sab e aaj
Valobasar nei kono ar daam...
Manush sudhui rokto mangshe gora...
Takar sathe ojon howa naam!

Hoyto esab vul dharona amaar...
Roopkotha te vulechhilaam sab;
Raajputro haariye gechhe kothao
Roopkothara mook, bodhir o nirob!

Oteet smriti khorakhuri hole...
Manush tokhon manush to ar noy...
Vaalor sathe kharap khuje pelei
Jibon khaatar hishebe vul hoy?

~smriti-charon~

Mon kharaper dorja khule rekhe...
Brishti daake moner kona hote;

Jaanala diye brishti veja mon
Jaachhe vije smritir kolahol...

Chokh bujle smritir prekhapot
Flashbacke te khusir chhobi hothat...

Khulte chokhe chaaichhena aaj mon
Ondhokaar e mrityu chaaiche monon...

Jibon sudhu jibon niye khela
Mukhos pora mukh mukhoser mela!

Manush hoye milbe naa aaj mote
Thunko hisheb saamne esey jote...

Oteet sudhu oteet jokhon noy
Valobasha-ta oteet smriti hoy!

~Jodi~

Jodi boli urbe pother dhulo
Jodi boli hariye jabe poth
Jodi boli sopno sudhui vanga
Jodi soriye ni aaj haat...

Tobe ki

Themey jaabe tomar onuvuti?
Themey jabe gopon kotha bola?
Themey jabe notun sopno dekha
Thamiye debe eksathe poth chola?

Abar

Jodi boli du vaag hobe sagor
Jodi boli pahar khujibe chand?
Jodi boli harabe snighdhotara
Jodi vange chokher jol aaj baandh?

Tokhon

Themey jabe tomar haater porosh
Themey jabe chupkothara abar
Themey jabe ushno saannidhyo
Themey giyeo poth cholbe abaar...

Tarpor hothat

Jodi pothe thaamte vule jao
Rajkonnye bondi hobe abaar...
Jodi firey aaste kobhu chaao
Rupkothara poth dekhabe ferar...

~Porihaas~

Jhukchhe aalo
Uthchhe akash...
Bikel sesher
Snigdho batas...
Shanti aane
Topto dine...
Aagun tobu
Moner kone...

Raat purechhe
sei aagune...
Joler chhnowa
Bashpo haane..
Rikto smriti
Shunno chokh...
Andhar mone
haraye sukh...

Jhor esechhe
Vishon hothat...
urchhe dhulo
Vangche kopat...
smritir dhulo
aaj porihaas...
bhobishyoter
Kono itihaas...

~Pothik~

Jokhon
Dupure bela aandhar aase neme
Roder taape purchhe chokher jol;
Hothat kore moner porda uthe
chokher saamne smritir kolahol...

Tor jonnye aankini kono chhobi
Tor jonnye likhini kobita...
Vaabtam bujhi bujhis je tui sab
Na bola sab gopon moner kotha...

Aanka sekha tor haat ta dhore
Kobitagulo o tor kaan chhuye jeto...
Mishti haasir onuvuti ta chhara..
Bakkyogulo ki konodin pran peto??

Aajke jokhon hothat chokhe vaase
Mondo valor kichhu muhurtora...
Smritigulo jotno kore rakhi...
Moner majhe thaakuk bondi ora!

Aajo majhe majhe sporsho pete chai
Tarporete bujhi brithai chaaoa...
Taai notun kore nama pother khoje
Pothik hoyei poth ke khuje jaoa..

~Shunyo~

Shunyotara odvut hoy boro
Dhorte tader para jaay na motey...
Naa thekeo obaadh jatayat
Jokhon tokhon moner majhe jotey...

Dupur seshe raatri hothat naamle
Moner majhe shunnyota ke pabey...
Chokher jole balish vijbe jokhon
Shunyotader jatayat baarbe...

Tobu jodi juddho korte chaao
Shunyota ke shunyo kore dekho...
Haater mutho alga koro ebar...
Smritider sab jotno kore rakho!

Smritir aghaat shunyotake daake
Shunyotader songi shunyo mon...
Smritir sathe juddho kothin boro
Jodhhokhetro tomaar amaar jibon!

~Smritir pata~

Jokhon

Manush haray smritir patay...
Abchha aadhipotyo;
Shunnyo ghore edik odik
chhinnovinno ostitto!

Badami molat haway orey...
Moner tepantorey;
Naa haranor shorto sab e
Haray ogochorey!

Shikol diye baandhbe jibon
Mrityu badhonchhara;
Smritir patay obadhyota
Baron manena ora...

Cholte giye klanto jokhon
Dwiprohor er somoy;
Ekla ekla dukkho vuley
Ekakittwo sohay...

Cholte pothe thaamte hobe
Khonik khushir khoje...
Swopno hoye kothao jodi...
Aashar nupur baje!